The title was of this post scheduled to be “Perspective, I Has It.” Only, I don’t. It’s been one month since Nationals. I am still uncalm about coming in Reserve National Grand Champion. [Report]
Oh sure, I can make all of the right noises. I was fortunate to have the chance to show. I rode well, which is the only part I can control. I held my own in a class that was larger and more competitive than last year. I nailed a pattern that people couldn’t believe was being asked of Academy riders. Second is nothing to sneeze at.
But dammit, dammit, dammit, I wanted to be National Champion.
I’m honestly thrilled about taking Reserve Champion in the first class on Sunday, the Pleasure Final. The woman who won had been untouchable all weekend. Coming second to her was like winning without the blue.
The woman who won the Equitation Final climbed from last on Friday to 7th on Saturday to 1st on Sunday (She was 3rd in the Pleasure Final). That’s what I did in 2014, except that I only made the leap from last to second. Three years, two levels, six finals, four gaudy Reserve Championship ribbons. It’s like they can’t bring themselves to give me first.
Dr. Margaret [Meet] has asked that I keep a list of positive interactions.
Rodney One
Dr. Margaret: “Everything you feel is … good information.” [Show Tweets]
Me, before riding Rodney: I’m nervous.
Me, being level-headed: Okay, so what does that mean?
Me, BRR: I hate that I am nervous about riding my own horse.
So, it’s not just nerves. It’s the fact that being nervous pisses me off.
Two
When Rodney backs off the the noseband [New] by the slightest amount, he doesn’t stop there. He scoots immediately & deeply behind my leg, thus explaining my unpleasant feeling of pitching forward. Identifying the problem is a small step toward taking control of my universe.
For non-riders, going behind the leg does not mean going backwards. (Although that can happen and is seriously unfun.) It has to do with how the horse is using his (or her) weight and energy. A horse behind the leg is not forward, not listening, not gathered into an athletic package ready for whatever comes next. I think. Corrections from riding theorists out there?
Milton
Nothing yet.
Lessons. Work. Packing for show. Traveling to show. Recuperating from show. Weather. Holiday weekend. Too may excuses for letting time slide away from me.
I have gotten to the point where I can pet on him without breaking into hysterics. Not a positive as much as lack of a negative.
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Gratuitous Cat Pic Rhyme
For Rodney. Seems to like it. Would prefer that I not use bit in addition. I am a) not ready to go without emergency brakes &/or b) getting him used to carrying a bit since he will need to wear one when/if he ever does dressage.