Part 2 of 3
[Part 1: Clean Cups!]
Why were we so thick? Why did it take us so long to notice that Milton was Not Quite Right?
A new horse has no baseline. What is normal? We tried ulcer meds for a month [So What, November]. He got pissier. We showered them with hay [Ranch, March]. They ate it. We raised feed rations [Miseries, February]. Ditto.
Maybe Milton simply had an irritable personality. It happens. Previous Horse could have been grumpy on a national team. After living with that for 20 years, Milton’s mild case was not remarkable.
Clearly any problems were All My Fault [Deconstructed, December]. Milton was uncooperative and unpleasant. He was not awful. He was not impossible. If I tried harder, was more motivated … If I was a better rider, a better person … If I would just suck it up and ride the damn horse …
Milton was supposed to be the easy horse. The horse I turned to as a relief from the quagmire of frustration that is Rodney. The specter of a second pasture ornament exceeded my ability to cope.