On My Mind, Miscellaneous Thoughts
Since y’all were kind enough to express concern about my health, I’ll let you know how it’s going.
Mostly fine. Having trouble shaking off the last lingering effects of whatever was bothering me. I’d blame sloth but I have an occasional cough that hangs around like the smell of ripe laundry, enough to convince me that it is not all in my head.
My first theory was digestive troubles. I was a symphony of gas pain after meals and gurgling noises and indigestion when I lay down. Whatever bug or bacteria I hosted had derailed my tum sufficiently that it was not processing correctly. Therefore, my food was not bio-available. Lovely theory, no? Too bad it had no bearing in reality.
1) I hadn’t dropped any weight, so clearly I was squeezing nutrition from what I ate.
2) A week of human UlcerGard had no effect.
Then, after the show weekend [Report, Options], I slept for two days. The next day, I rode 3 horses. The day after that, I slept most of the day. Then, I was busy two days in a row [Lesson, Sloss (pending)] and tried to keep going. Cue stomach troubles.
So, I’m tired. When I got my truck back [Wheels], I started riding, shipping to lessons, and swimming. It was too much. When I try to do too much, I get tired. When I’m tired, my digestive system lashes out.
Which is utterly ridiculous. Half of my rides are walks. I’m in the pool less time than it takes me to drive there [The Downside of Being Mobile]. None of this should wear me out.
However, my brain doesn’t get to make that decision. If my body says it’s tired, then it’s tired. So, I have I stopped swimming, temporarily. I still ride and ship, but accept that I need to rest. Well, I try to accept that I need to rest. And yes, ponder why I think of my brain as “I” and think of my body as a convenient vehicle to carry me around.
None of this is serious, just annoying. Been spending this dark, rainy week napping, writing blog posts, and running errands. With luck next week will be more festina, less lente.
Thank you for reading, and for your concern,