You Have No Idea Why I, A Small Rant

You – the metaphorical you – posted online that if I am not loudly and performatively denouncing what is going on right! now!, then I agree with the bad guys and I am terrible and you will block me and you will cease to do business with me.

Okay, fine. You do you.

However.

You have no idea why I – the metaphorical I – am doing what I am doing. Or not doing.

Maybe I do agree with the other side.

Maybe I am strong social justice warrior who is finding a few minutes to unwind.

Maybe I am a craven coward hiding my head in the sand.

Maybe I bask in privilege and assume they will never come for me, regardless of that poem.

Maybe I have a job that prevents me from speaking publicly on any issue.

Maybe I am from a segment of society that does not see mistreatment by the US Government as a shocking new twist. Welcome to my world.

Maybe I can’t afford to.

Maybe I am lazy with a well-developed sense of self-justification.

Maybe I belong to a vulnerable demographic.

Maybe I am dealing with a disease that is taking all my extra registers right! now!

Maybe my brain is consumed by looking after a sick child, or sick parent, or sick spouse. Care-giving is hard.

Maybe I believe in big checks and private opinions.

Maybe I have a family member who has been taken and hearing you bleet about it reawakens my pain.

Maybe I have a family member who has been taken and hearing your support heartens me.

Maybe I don’t care.

Maybe I have been fighting the good fight for years and am having trouble coming off the ropes one more time.

Maybe I don’t believe in adding to the noise.

Maybe I live where speaking out puts me in danger.

Maybe I don’t exist for your satisfaction.

Maybe I did and you missed it.

Maybe I do and the algorithm isn’t showing those to you.

Maybe I have a separate political platform that you read avidly and quote from regularly.

Maybe I am shocked, and stunned, and struggling with what to say.

Maybe I am in the thick of it and just spent my day delivering groceries and protecting preschools.

Maybe I have reasons that are my own.

You have no idea.